有缘就会在一起，就像你和我♥

没有缘就所以分开，就像你和我♥

WORKING ^pls... To get what i what?

The fearest moment is finally here..I don't like college and working,I used to advice my friends not to..but I'm embarrassed to say,I am! I lost my faith awfully =(

WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT.......

.............

...................

..........................

...........sometimes, silence can be a good things.

So, please silence yourself!!!

Getting used to it~ past and will getting better^^

You have never call me because I called you.
And you know I'm going to call you all the time when I miss you like crazy,
So what that u made the 1st action and it has stolen my heart.
I'm totally desperated,hessitated,suffocated =(
But this will not last forever...
Feeling will change when Heart get hurts..
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

人生的路好象海一样看不清楚与摸不透。

拼命的游，都到不了终点。仿佛要溺死了。

知道了梦想的荒谬，可知道宽容？

人说，世界末日要到了，要过得洒脱，快活。

人终究是人。

世界末日来临时，一样盲目，一样不知所措。

我只想叹一口长长的气，真的累了，真的难了。

随风吧。。。

情绪化

現在的我經常可以突然间静静不说话也不笑..
不要怀疑.. 这.. 就是我的情绪化..
如果.. 有缘成为朋友~
欺骗.. 是本人最讨厌的..
诚实才会有真心..
如果.. 你很幸运的让我喜欢上你~
就请你珍惜.. 付出你的真心..
不然就离我远远的..
如果你不珍惜.. 对我不好.. 不疼我..
就不要怪我狠心离开.. 也不要后悔..
因为.. 真的喜欢上你~ 就会对你很好.. 一旦选择了离开..
做什么都太迟了.. 也不会再回头.. 有时候..
我的绝情不代表我不伤心也不代表没感觉了！
而是.. 我并没那么坚强.. 可以再承受那种痛，
也不会再让自己伤心多一次..
我.. 就只有一个~ 唯一的一个~
不会跟别人一样也不喜欢跟别人一样.. 就是那么简单~没有想象中的复杂~^^

珍惜

真正的爱情，不是一见钟情，而是日久生情；

真正的缘份，不是上天的安排，而是你的主动；

真正的自卑，不是你不优秀，而是你把她想得太优秀；

真正的关心，不是你认为好的就要求她改变，而是她的改变你是第一个发现的；

真正的矛盾，不是她不理解你，而是你不会宽容她。

我们一直觉得妥协一些、将就一些、容忍一些可以得到幸福。

但当你的底线放得越低，你得到的就是更低的那个结果！不是吗?

不要因为寂寞爱错人，更不要因为爱错人而寂寞一生，

尝试信任才能得到幸福。缘分是本书，翻的不经意会错过，

读得太认真会泪流。女人会记得让她笑的男人，男人会记得让他哭的女人，

可是女人总是留在让她哭的男人身边，男人却留在让他笑的女人身边。

多少人在说，我会等你，

等你回心转意的那一天；

我会等你，等你愿意和我在一起的那一天；

我会等你，等你离开那个人来到我身边的那一天；

我会等你，等你……

然而人们可曾知道，世上的爱情，没有几份真的经得起等待！

这个世界上最残忍的一句话，

不是对不起，也不是我恨你，

而是，我们再也回不去。

就是这样再简单不过的一句话，

生生的将两个原本亲密的人隔为疏离。 

没有经历过的人，永远都不会明白，

那是怎样的一种切肤之痛。

最宝贵的东西不是你拥有的物质，

而是陪伴在你身边的人。

不能强迫别人来爱自己，

只能努力让自己成为值得爱的人，

其余的事情则靠缘分。

爱总是会使我们有太多期许：

希望长久，

希望不会分别，

希望占有和实现。

而最终只是觉得有些许厌倦，

不知道该往哪里去。

爱情就是这样，

有些人会慢慢遗落在岁月的风尘里，哭过，笑过，吵过，闹过，

再恋恋不舍也都只是曾经。

世界上最动人的情话，不是“我爱你”，

而是在我需要的时候，你说“ I’ll be there ” 。

每一个不敢再爱的女人，一定很深的爱过。

看起来好象百毒不侵，其实早已百毒侵身。

女人好比梨，外甜内酸。

吃梨的人不知道梨的心是酸的，

因为吃到最后就把心扔了，

所以男人从来不懂女人的心。

男人就好比洋葱，想要看到男人的心就需要一层一层去剥！

但在剥的过程中你会不断流泪，剥到最后你才知道洋葱是没心的。

爱情里最忌讳的是：两人都幻想着彼此的未来，却也总惦记着对方的过去。

明明说着看开了，

放下了，

每次却总是不自觉的想起那个给与温暖的人。

每每又总是在微笑沉醉时看到了现实，

想到了伤痛，

然后，冷的感觉再也暖和不起来了 。

如此反复，心，终于累了，

现实就是这样。我曾经醉过，

却又最终醒来，我正在行走，却找不到方向。

我想进入你的世界 。

我想用我的全世界来换取一张通往你的世界的入场券，

道歉并不总意味着你是错的，

而对方是正确的。

有时它只是意味着相对自我而言，

你更珍惜你们之间的关系。

现在的我躺在床上，一面在听音乐，一面在blogging^

最近

生病！生病！生病！

我的细胞好像……

是病菌做的似的。

几时开始觉得我就快不能了？！

鼻子的病一天比一天严重，

头痛也不赖哦……

病和细胞，你们可以好好休息一下。

希望接到的电话是真的关心，并不是质疑，若要怀疑我就直接关电话，让你怀疑个够。。。

What a wonderful life i can get from you all...

im very happy that i met ALL of u in my life~~~ Some of u made me understand the importance of friends, Some of you taught me LIFE, Some of you taught me ♥ and some of you introduced "warm" and "care" in my life.... i appreciated it from the bottom of my heart! thank you for all the time, patience, advices and above all, the true heart u babes gave to me ♥ ♥

Everything is surrounded by the word "balance"... nothing more but... nothing less~~ ♥ ♥

Love me for who i am, and i'll do back the same! Learnt that love is built on even all small little things including courage, trust, affection, understanding, determination and respect. Mayb a bit of sacrificing from both sides. But then, diff ppl define it differently.. Thatz y therez no explanation on this small little devilish feeling

我爱你~

我学会怎么去爱，但我学不会怎么放弃。。。

有时不是我不知...而是我想等你和我说真话...

我以为只要很认真地喜欢，就可以打动一个人。

却原来，我只是打动了我自己 。

感动了自己，感动了自己的心灵和曾经的泪流满面。

或许我们真的不适合....

如果有天你不爱我了…那请你放开我的手让我远走…

♥ when I put my lips like this mean I wanna kiss ♥

 ♥ kiss.. kiss...♥

Today due with a worth 40 MILLION tender...

27 Hole...
In Desaru, JB

...❤曾经以为我们爱过就是永远...曾经以为分手后的眼泪就是肤浅❤...

                                                          鱼哭了,水知道.我哭了,谁知道

心底的真心話

只要你对我不好，我就会马上离开你！

my 1st shooting...

nice place...

nice picture...

photographer: ling ling

place: kampung

这比不上...你们给的痛...

如今

头痛！！！
胃痛！
什么都来~

爱 一个人

人是会变得

人是会变得，
一年
五年
十年
如果我的心不会痛，
也许，我就不会想起有你的存在！
就因为，有你的存在……
所以，我注定会心痛。
就尽是那一天……
我会倒下？
从此，我就不再属于你了。

有时我还真的不知道……

看到照片的人，走来走去的~
开始在思考,一个很没有意义的事。
为什么别人喝醉，可以很好睡。
而3+8的我，喝醉却无法睡！
我心里很了解，有很多对我假假的人在四周！
明知道，不是自己的，还去靠近，简直就是自讨苦吃！
也许，对自干堕落的人，别人根本就瞧不起……
可是，对于你们的冷漠对待，让我觉得很讽刺！
你有几真心？又有几假？
难道，我感受不到吗？
真真假假~
对我来讲，更本不是什么稀奇的事了。
因为，这三年……我已经看够了！！！

这是一个没有意义的过去式人生！

Friend...ZZZ

*** (-_-) APPLE & PRISCILLA (^_−)−☆！

I'm waiting for that "Right Person" coming to my life now.....

Living alone is really not easy, huh?
But now I'm used to it already...Most of the times when I'm dragging my body back home after the flight, what's welcoming me is the empty home, with noone. Sometimes I wished there is someone in the home

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave. You were what I wanted. I gave what I gave. I'm not sorry I met you and I'm not sorry it's over. I'm not sorry there's nothing to save.

爱上一个人不需要原因，但要离开一个人自然而然出现很多的原因

我做了一件我从来没做过的傻事！！！

Heading off =] u know ur promise huh?! ♥

I asked myself the purpose of get drunk.. I've no idea with it but you!

Perhaps...

Perhaps u were my Caffeine...but I've already found my Aspirin.

I met someone who doesn't really care about me..and I love him. awhhh

Why don't you learn to appreciate?! you chase it and then abandon it! I did this to my clothes but not often! I've never ever do this to relationship!

why do you often splash my mood down when I'm so and so excited with you? this is hurt . . . nvm,have fun!

P/S:I'm speechless,but good job ya!

你！

骗子骗子骗子！！
以后都不再信你讲话了！
对你的信任0！！
不想跟你说话
别找我

A day without laughter is a day wasted, so you can consider me as a people who living in a life wasted

No hope anymore.
i shouldn't be here, i shouldn't be here.
i had no idea how come everythings went wrong...
i have no heart...
i have no brain at all...

do not close to me, as i don't want people feel pity at me!!!
no home
no heart
no brain
no love
nothing is belongs to me...
i don't want this kind of life, i wanna give up...

I'M COMING!!!

累了·放手吧

人在做选择时，往往会犹豫很久，但我从来没有问过别人我应该如何抉择。。。毕竟用了多少力气就只有自己知道，每一个细节无论铺成得多好都未必可以成就完美，认真的再一次犹豫，慢慢再次投入自我空间。这一次，我自己为我自己选择。。。

靠近不到我，就请走开！

我有我自己的思想，
我有我自己的过去，
你要的我做不到，
我要的你也做不到，
中间含有什么样的意义？？

谁都不能改变我的想法包括我自己。
东西不是我的，我不会要，但是，需要我还是会去用。
东西有名就会想到，东西有照片就不会忘记。
不是我欠了你，而是，你，你，还有你，欠我的。

不知道有几多人因为我这样的思想而讨厌我，我不介意，没有你们的谅解，也不需要你们的关心。
我只想自己孤独的过！！！听到没有。
我爱的只有一个，我对不起的人，她是我的最爱，可是，我不能去接近她。

不归路

很多时候,往往我们给了自己一个如果,而使另一个如果发生.
"如果我从未遇见你,我就不会让自己陷入爱的陷阱"
因为如果我见识到属于自己的许多前因后果.

如果我再努力些,上次的考试成绩一定不是这样.
很总结的说,如果岂不是给自己留下余地的借口了吗?
也因为如此,我一次一次的给自己退后的机会,让自己踏入一条"不归路"
明明很坚强,不管是否逞强,地说过要证明给自己看,说服颓废的自己得振作起来.

如果说我做出跃出自己底线的事是勇敢,我宁可把含蓄的自己找回来，
让自己反省一番,自己做过的事情有多么的愚蠢.
因为那懦弱的自己总在事情发生后被不堪设想的后果折磨得伤痕累累.

一封接着一封的信息在开机后陆续显示,但是我并没有因此而开心过,
就如收过一盒接一盒的巧克力,我微笑并不代表我快乐.
因为接到的信息,电话,礼物都不是自己想见到的.
这一点都不伤人,总觉得是欠缺了某种感觉.
常说的. this is not right! it makes me feel so uncomfortable.

原来天长地久只是误会一场~

我想和你一起白头偕老。

本小姐和本小姐的脚踏车（×。×）

A new day , a new me!!!

2011 Feb 26

Yesterday i cut my hair, now i'm going to catch up class...yeah!!!

希望就这样平平淡淡的过完我的下半辈子，一个人的夏天。

我真的很想忘记他，但是我并不是所想象的那么坚强。曾经希望，曾经要求你一个很简单很简单的东西，只希望你能陪在我身边让我不要想起他……

也因为这个过高的要求，我变成了你嘴边的不会体谅～不会了解别人的小妹妹。也因为我真的不曾好好了解我自己。

是我错了吧，去爱上我不爱的人。

当他爱我的时候，我不爱他。
当他想我的时候，我嫌他烦。
当他对我好的时候，我真的没有感激过。
可是，到我对他好的时候，他没有发现到。
到他发现的时候，已经太迟了。

我经常都会想起他，和他说过的话。

我睡了》他会说：你在说傻话？

我害怕晚上一个人，他都不睡觉的，跟我说电话……
虽然，他24小时都有差不多20多个小时在通电话但是……
只要他一的空就会打来，是他让我一开始让我觉得烦，每天都打二十多通电话。
到我习惯了听他的声音，原来不是习惯。

原来，不会爱自己的笨蛋，就苯苯的爱上了他。
他为我做过的，我都是会常常想起……
朋友说是习惯了……
我想是因为他付出了很多吧！！！
是我错了吗？选择了放弃差不多快要两年的感情，我想开始新的生活了。

看到你送的东西，就真的无可奈何……

到底我的心几时才可以平复下来……
几时才可以从新来过……
几时才可以接受回我自己……

我只想对你说，有些东西我不会解释，也不需要你去了解，毕竟我有我自己的理由。
有时坦白也是一种伤害，不一定伤害到的就是你，不小心伤害到的是自己。
接受不到自己的过去，就因为放不下……
放不下是因为伤口太多，太深，时常都弄到，会流血，会痛，会想起。
不是不让你去了解，而是无法让你聊解……一个更本不了解自己的自己。

为什么都没有人看到我！！！

很累，很累了……
不想再继续走了。
本来，真的忘了怎么哭。
今天却因为他掉眼泪了，最近的心情，跌倒谷底了。
我要的东西都很简单，为什么就是没有……
想要的依靠，离我好远好远哦~
近来，真的很复杂。
我自己都接受不到，就快我的世界，开始奔溃了。

A boyfriend

I love to talk to you.

ok,then I found actually we should have better be friends together ;)
It seems better to handle and carry on...
It's like so comfortable and warm.
thank you,because you bring me to way too much in such so meaningful and joyful ..
I'm lovin it.

no matter how u think,wht u feel,I don't mind.
I've no will to be minded.

maybe its truth u have been living in this way or facing like this to every girls.
fair enough. this is your soul.

your beautiful soul.

you will always be my lovely handsome happy spirit.

thanks !

Past is past...

It's raining outside, cats and dogs.
I'm alone in the bedroom...breathing the air,tasting the tears.
I've never know my life would suck like this because of a boy.
I wonder why would I do this to myself and keep touchering like a sorry looking girl.
I used to confidence right?

It's a little too over myself...
Like he promised,said,teased,I donno...
And have no idea..where has the smart girl been ?

Shouldn't have trusted him,
he might not lie to me but he might leave one day.
Invisible one day,

There're some said, "you cannot change him until one day he has became another 1 then it's time for him to fly away".
yea~he has got some new fun,new games,why not?

I keep pushing everythings but aint got no limit for myself,and I was the one who lying down,deep fell over and over again.

Now,go ahead,I don't wanna cry for you anymore.

现在我已经知道了，但是我已经伤痕累累。

原来，我高估了我自己……
我不能阻止他去认识别的女生，我只可以阻止自己爱上他。
就因为你是那个闪闪发亮的星星，让我无法靠近你。
你有你要的美好人生，我会寻找我所要的。
开心……为什么总是离我那么远！！！

心情超级低落

现在的我只能习惯
毕竟我的生活里不再是一个人
不能太自私
加油吧(^_−)−☆

Feeling

Sometimes I wish you could walk into my heart and listen to what it says.

我们

今天我鼓起勇气打给你，你的问候，让我很悲伤……
当你关心我的时候，我在掉眼泪……
你问我：怎么啊？
我很喜欢听你的声音。
可是，我哭的时候，你的承诺又去了哪里呢？
你每次说:等一下打回给你，却永远等不到你的电话。
就算，我们已经不是男女朋友了……
就算，你已经不再爱我了……
至少，你……
可以……
送我一个很普通……
很普通的关心吧……
毕竟……
我们在一起过……
不是很久……
也不是很短的日子……
那些日子……
我们曾经相爱过……
付出过……
拥有过……
我的小小的心愿……
从今以后……
我只希望我可以过得比你好！
这样我才不会自卑……
你不知道，那一次……
下大雨，我闯车……
我是多么的不开心多么的难过，你竟然大声的跟那个人说……有什么事找我……
不关她的事……她没有看到，你还很关心我
我知道……
可是，是爱还是不爱……
我分不清……
只可以说，我们是没有可能的。
我们只可以用句号来形容……
我们不能在一起，我还是一样爱你。

It's faith....

Sometimes I think...

Sometimes I wonder....

What's the point being a good girl n all?

In the end...

Ppl would not believe in you...

They misjudge you...


They accuse n blame u on something without even bother telling you wat it is...or try to listen nor get any explanation from you....

They immediately judge you from wat they see...

But not from the person itself...


Its hurts alot when you know u are innocent but people is still madly accusing you...blaming you on something which you never ever did...

It even hurts when you know it was the closet person around you that accused you...

Blame you...

Don't believe in you...


Friends...

Family...

Lovers..

EVERYONE....


Perhaps this is my faith...

Perhaps this the karma I get from my past life...

It's my destiny to be accused and blamed by people...

By the people you once loved n trust...


It's not the first time things like tat happen to me...

Since young....

I was accused n blamed ALWAYS...

The pain..

The suffer I had all these long...

No one will ever know...

No one will ever understand...


Just imagine...

Somebody accuse you on something you didn't even do and u have to FORCE yourself to admit it just for the sake of stopping all the scolding n more misunderstanding ?!!

Have you?

I faced such problems since I was like 9?

I will never forget those moments I was blamed n accused....

The pain...

The wound...

Had turn to a big scar deep down in my heart....


Why....??

Why I have to get such punishment...?

Why people have to treat me like this...?

Why accused...?

Why blame...?

Or this is a sign to let me know that I shouldn't be a good girl after all...??


Perhaps I should start blaming n accuse someone too..?

Or perhaps I'll just be a bad girl and let everyone say about it...?

Blame n accuse me about everything...

At least it's true...

They doesn't want to listen or get any explanation from you after all....


Sad?

Yes...


Pain?

Yes...


Disappointment?

Yes....


What to do..?

Perhaps it's really my faith to be accused n blamed my whole life...


Like always...

I can do nothing....

Nobody cares after all...


The pain n suffer of being blamed n accused...

Had become part of my living...

Part of my life...

当他不爱你的时候，请选择放弃。

因为你无法得到他，放弃就让回忆得到了他。爱上一个不爱自己 的人会很累。或许你不知道，被一个自己不爱的人爱着也会很累。因为你的爱对他而言是一种负担。你的爱，是火焰，他不敢拥抱。你的爱，会让他恐慌，让他逃 避。所以你应该站在对方的立场来思考对方的感受。

放开他吧，勉强来的爱是不会幸福的。让他自由快乐的同时，也要让自己自由。尽管不快乐。让他幸福地微笑。让自己微笑着流泪。

拿得起放得下

有着太多的“ 执着”，岂是说放下就能放得下的！
如果一个人真能够做到“拿得起，放得下”， ...
就称得上是幸福的人生了。
能不能很快调整好自己的心态？
任何东西只要能拿得起,就可以放得下!
错了！
除了感情以外，其它东西都可以拿得起放得下 ...
左思右想, 舍不得放不下眼前自己所拥有的一切？
带着你眼前所拥有的一切去受苦吧！

How i wish...

How I wish I was not that lonely...

How I wish if I'm given more attention...

How I wish to be that happy girl again......

How I wish......

我对你，只有放弃，没有忘记。我唯一没有做好的事，就是说了"我愛你"。

我把爱给了不该爱上的他
最后留下伤痛给了我自己
还记得当初是我说过的，我只是喜欢他而已。
可是如今这而已却已变味。
是爱吗?我不想知道。
我不想爱上他，因为这只会让一切变的更危险。
希望我不曾遇见他。
也许我们就是有缘无分，
才会擦肩而过。
累了，我真的累了……
可能是注定的。
所以我要把他从我的世界里搬出来了。
很想说：为什么我一直看到你！

I miss the smile, I miss the laughter, I miss who he used to be....

He has no idea what goes on through
 her mind.

She's so good at pretending and 
he will never know how many tears are 
fallen each night for him.

Nor the endless 
hours that she wastes thinking maybe....

Just maybe....

Sometimes I wished you really know how I feel deep inside.....

Good girl gone bad ?

I've been trying so hard to get away from this world....

From the world of reality...


Have u heard of ''The higher u climb the harder u fall '' ?


Yes...

Things like that always happen to me...

I have no idea how many times I cried...

How many times I broke down all this long....

The pain inside is killing me deeply...


I thought I was weak...

But I was wrong...

All these problems I had...

Made me grow stronger...


I used to cry before I sleep...

I used to cry in my dreams....

I used to cry when I'm awake...


Tears....

They represent thousand of words...

They represent...

Sadness...

Anger...

Disappointment....


I learn not to cry often....

I learn not to put so much hope on something or someone...

I learn to stand on my feet whenever I fall...


I was on MSN the other day...

Chatting with one of my old friend...

Dint met her for 3 yrs now...


I was stunned when I chat with her...

Guess what?

She's totally different...


She told me she read my blog...

She encourage me to be bad...

Encourage me to try smoking...

Encourage me to be a playgirl...

Encourage me to ' USE ' guys...


I was shocked....

She's not like that before....

She used to be a good girl..


I remember her telling me how much she hate ppl smoking...

I remember her telling me how much she hate those playgirls....

I remember how she used to hate and gossip about those playgirls who simply just kiss, having one nigh stand , n playing with guys feelings....

But now...

She have become one of them....


I don't hate her...

Seriously I don't....

She's still my friend...


I know why she would end up like this...

I couldn't blame her...

She really had a hard time...


Her family breaks apart...

She caught her boyfriend cheating on her....

She run away from home n live with her friends...


Now she's a hard smoker...

She couldn't live without smoking...

Cigarettes its like a tranquillizer to her...

She have to smoke at least 12 sticks of cigarette a day...

To calm her down n stuff....


She used guys...

For her transportation...

And for money spending...


I know it's the scar...

The deep heartbreaks...

The sadness she had turns her like tat....


She might sounds strong or looks strong...

but I know deep inside...

She's not...

The fragile heart she born with...

It's always there inside...


She do admit that she's different n bad now...

but she have no regrets on wat she have done to herself..

She told me she was happy with her life..


Imagine if one day I'm like her...

Would I end up happy too?


After I blog about me planning to be a bad girl...

They are quite lots of ppl suggested me trying to be bad...

Which kinda shocked me tho...

They're like....

'U too guai lui ady la... try to be bad n see how it feels la..perhaps u'll like it...'

Of course they are people who told me not to be so stupid to go ahead n 'destroy' myself too... I should love myself n be proud of myself....


But seriously....

Because I'm a good girl and all....

They are real life ppl out there who really used me...

betray me...

lie to me...

take advantage of me..

accuse me....


I loose hope on friends, love n family...


I'm really tired of getting sad....

Getting heartbreaks...

Getting pissed...

I cant take this pain anymore...


Whether I'm turning bad or not...

I know they are no guarantees that I might feel better or happy....

No one can see the future...

No one can predict wat's gonna happen....


I don't wan to turn bad too...

It isn't my thing at all....

I wan to continue being a good girl as I promised...


All I need it's just love, care n support...

I really just wanna be happy....

Lolìpop

Love me forever!

Remember me always!

Dream

Princess...

Red apple

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